Think of the time over the years, when was the last time you shed some tears?
Was it a birth of a child or someone who died, when was the last time you openly cried?
Was it floods of many or a single tear, this is my story of what happened to me
In the middle of the night I opened my eyes, then uncontrollably I started to cry
I raised my head of the pillow so wet, painful memories I tried to forget
I was in my house lying all alone, this house I was in is no longer my home
The laughter is gone only tears remain, where once love was is replaced by pain
In the darkness I go down stairs, lying in silence is hard to bare
I put the kettle on for a cup of Milk, I don’t bother with meals as it’s only me
I sit on the sofa cup in hand, how much more can I take before I can no longer stand?
In the silence in the dark, all is so different the dog doesn’t even bark
I think of the past I think what future may bring, I look at the phone hoping it would ring
I look round the room, a belt I see, maybe the world would be better a world without me
Round my neck I pull the belt tight, no willing to life, no willing to fight
In my head, the blood pressure builds, hopefully no long still I will be lying still
I feel the tears rolling down my face, I need to escape my head’s darkest place
loosing the belt I gasp for air, this is all because of one person who obviously didn’t care
For friends and family who love me so, my grip on life I will not let go
The road is long and it will be hard, but if I apply myself I can go far
I think of my children that I would leave behind, but they are always with me in my hearts and mind
From crying in the corner with tears in my eyes, from being so low where I wanted to die
I take a look now to what I’ve been through, I look in the mirror, and see a life of new
The reflection of a broken man I still often see, but I have accepted that he is part of me
